But here I am now and believe me, I have been thinking if it's wise to blog about this, perhaps up until I hit that "publish" button. If you're allergic to cheesy posts, please stop right now and just wait for my next post, as this post is a celebration of love.
Lately, I have been going through so much stress, partly because of my super duper late sweldo. Sleep was quite elusive these past few nights. The only thing that I find good about it is that I managed to put some more hours to work.
The other night, worms found their way into my dreams. they came in all sorts of shapes and sizes,it was gross! I googled its meaning and I found out that it denotes weakness, or helplessness, even doubt. Funny that when you kill worms in your dreams, you will receive money in your waking life. Had I known this, I would have killed them all, with laser beams and shiny swords! lol ;)
Then last night I found myself married to somebody else. Take note, this "someone else" whom I will call dream-husband, is hunky and good looking and laglag-panty sa yummy. My husband-husband was there, as well as my two kids, and for some reason, I was down to my dalaga size of 25-inch waistline. Kung tatakas ako sa responsibility ko as mom and wife, that would be the perfect time to do it!
You know what's funny? I found myself crying when dream-husband told me he's taking me home - his home - which will become OUR home. I was crying so hard, he agreed to take me to my parents' house. Still, I was crying because I wanted so much to be with my husband-husband and our two kids, I just want him to go away and let me be with my loved-ones. Buti na lang nagising na ko.
My marriage is far from perfect, this I tell you. There were times when I was soo tired of being a mom and a wife, I just want to leave everything behind and not look back. Sometimes I wondered what would I be had I not married my hubby. or if I chose to be "childless". or if I just stopped at kid #1. While there was really nothing to regret, I wondered a lot.
My dream made me realize that deep inside, I wouldn't have it any other way. That if push comes to shove, my fat behind will still be by my hubby's side. with my kids. all four of us as one. and it feels so nice.
There. I can sleep now. Happy weekend. ^_^
8 comments:
dreams are partly true daw? i dunno... pero sayang ha... sana, kahit sa dream man lang, may other man ka. hahahaha! pero loyal ka pa rin sa hubby even in your dreams. :)
naku wag naman sana yung worms!! naku kadiri yun. lol! XD
naku dun ko din lang narealize na loyal pala ko sa hubby ko. hehe. kala ko nga keri ko na sha ipagpalit sa iba, kaso dun sa dream, parang ang weird ng feeling, hindi ko pala kaya kahit seksi na ko. hahaha XD
Eeeeh, I had this kind of dream din before! Ex ko naman yung nasa dream ko...made me feel guilty when I woke up, kasi bakit ko sya napanaginipan of all people? :) According to a book I read before, dreams daw are either what your subconscious wants, what the future holds, or what your real desires are, depende daw yon when during your sleep mo sya napanaginipan, right after you slept, in the middle of your sleep, or right before you wake up. :) Pero in fairness, even in your dreams nga, namamayagpag ang loyalty to hubby. :) Kudos to you sis! It only means your love for family is eternal. :)
I don't know why pero parang naiiyak ako sa post mo lalo na yung part na umiiyak ka dahil gusto mo bumalik sa hubby mo. Siguro iyakin lang talaga ako. Pero sa totoo lang nakaka-relate ako. I always have these questions na, what if? What if, I stayed at in the Philippines? Di siguro ako corporate american slave. What if ganito, ganun, etc. Pero isa lang ang sagot, my husband and my son complete me....And I love posts like this. It's not cheesy at all:)
Nakaka relate ako sa'yo...I have these feelings sometimes too especially pag may gusto ako gawin for myself or puntahan na place...but at the end mas pipiliin ko pa rin tong life ko now.
Pero masarap sana kung may day off tayong mga mommies noh and we can pamper ourselves and not feel guilty while doing it.
thanks mga sis sa support. hehe. nagguguilty nga ako kasi bat ganun yun dream ko, panu kung subconscious ko pala yun gusto na ng ibang lalaki. hehe. but it really made me realize, yung family ko pa din pala pipiliin ko. wala lang, ang weird. ^_^
I can totally relate, not to the actual dream though... but dun sa having weird dreams --- lalo na when pregnant, super vivid ng images! :)
I was like "Awwwww.." when I read the part na you still chose your husband-husband instead of the dream husband.. :) Your husband is very lucky to have you, kasi even in your dreams talaga... :)
I can totally relate, not to the actual dream though... but dun sa having weird dreams --- lalo na when pregnant, super vivid ng images! :)
I was like "Awwwww.." when I read the part na you still chose your husband-husband instead of the dream husband.. :) Your husband is very lucky to have you, kasi even in your dreams talaga... :)
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